Path Unexplained.

Was looking at the Google Street View, tracing back paths that I used to walk, as far back since 1996. The views have changed but not the paths, the last 19 years saw a dramatic change in so many things, especially the way my life story unfold before my very own eyes.

Some revisits were unpleasant, some traumatic and even some unexplained. The main path has been absolutely challenging, at times, without perseverance one will be frightened to the skin!

The passages vividly played in my mind as I cruise though the Street View. I ask my self, what has pulled me through all the “unfair” challenges? (of which I have labeled them as.) What was the plan?

Yesterday someone I have not seen for a long time asked me, “why this path?”. I don’t know and does it matter? But surely the question was thought provoking, challenging me to trace the path again, hoping to (re)discover some clues, some meanings and hints that I have not understood.

The path, yes all the past 19 years was indeed mind boggling, no one can explain to me, no one will ever see the path I have been through and no one can feel the deafening instincts I have followed!

No one.

But surely, I am putting them behind me. It is good to recall them sometimes as reminders but it will not be easy, really.

Memories….letting loose

memoriesThis is an amateur but self made video with the title “”Memories”, much with the feeling of wanting the characters within a photo to come alive in our memories. It builds another dimension to photo taking with the end result of letting the characters outside the photo frame. Not easy as you can see from the video that some shots were bad and not suitable for these types of end results. Enjoy!

The stress of making new year resolutions!

It’s the end of Day2 of 2015 now and as I set out to observe other’s new year resolution, I have found many Facebook postings to be interesting. One has been very determined to quit smoking and I hope this friend of mind can make it through with his fair bit of determination. I know he is reading this and you have all our blessings. You can make it!

Another resolute with a long list, yes I know you are reading this too, from finding more financial freedom, buying a car, better career and also finding the other half in love. Yes buddy, you can make it if you push yourself harder but mindful with the handful resolutions you have set. take one at a time and be realistic. Yet I must say that you have to work hard on them, but a resolution that long is definitely a good start.

Yet another friend has also resolute to make big bucks from some multi-level-marketing (MLM). I am sure you will achieve the feat you have set but please do remember not to be overconfident. I have seen many postings from this friend over the last few weeks but nevertheless, I hope action is louder should you practice them well. Good luck!

What about mine?

Nay, I think it is too stressful now for a fifty-year-old-soon-to be! But seriously, I will be taking them at my pace now; taking one at a time slowly but surely they will keep my brain working. Seriously, I will be working more on my hobby of writing better software and my next mega project will making an intelligent robot from Lego Mindstorms, a robotic Lego set my daughter got from Santa for Christmas!

I will also working on my green house project (see yesterday’s post), a very sequel to my earlier solar project in 2012. see here

Else I think it will be too stressful for me to resolute more and I know it well that my work will be too occupied. For those not making any resolution let me share a post I have written sometimes back. See here for Billy Joel’s River of Dreams.

Meanwhile keep reading! Cheers.

Happy New Year! (I am back!)…. :)

It was 15 months that I have last written, missing entirely 2014 without any posts. It was truly an hectic year with most weekends spent working. So, I am back! (Don’t tell people in that I have written almost everyday in Facebook for the entire 2014!)

I wanted to write again in 2015, making effort to write everyday (again!), yes, in WordPress that is.

For a start, I want to share with you an experiment that I have started a while ago with a green house, basically to study (and helping my daughter) the ecology. Would love to see how the system work everyday, I have bought a small transparent container and placed some soli and water to simulate the landscape. I have made it slightly sloped to give the best effect of “rain” that I hope to see. Here is the project and I promise to show you snapshots of it every few days.

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Elsewhere, my heart and prayers is still with those affected by the flood on the East Coast and the families of victims in the AK8501 that went crashing. Be strong.

Meanwhile, keep following!

Hate My Job? Absolutely No!

In a casual chat yesterday, my well-respected middle aged Chartered Marketer colleague actually throws in a very simple question that sent me in a very awkward situation without an answer. Impromptu, my mind sent me reviewing very hard in search for a real answer and at that moment, I really gave up. I have searched very hard through my memories, way back to more than eighteen years of recollections; in the speed of light and within a few seconds that’s it, (or probably only three seconds) I cannot recall, let alone answering that simple but yet an elusive one.
‘Emm…I can’t tell you as..,” I remembered responding to him in a shameful way and the words actually came through my mouth as my memories still recollecting, very hard still. But I was glad that I don’t have an answer then, as honestly, I have forgotten the answer! So what was that very important question that has prompted me to blog this post? job

I can’t recall the exact question, but it sounds like this “have you ever hated your job?” In fact, I can’t recall the conversations that we had, yes, all the ten minutes before this question! It was all archived very deep in my mind by now. My mind is still filled with this question, more with the answer actually as I type in these words. What had pursued second later was my response “I can’t recall when was the last time I hated my job; well I have not hated any of those for the past eighteen years!” I can recall that these two wise men (ahem) jubilates with the answer soon after!

I felt that answer was the most honest one and I am still amazed with the answer! I have never for the last eighteen years come across this question or someone asking one to me. I felt relieved and happy that I have been so honest with myself. Yes, I have not hated my job for the last eighteen years, and I can rightfully claim now but word of thank must be given to my wise colleague Brian. I then added that I have not a single day that I dragged myself to work; I have jumped straight into my work each morning with full enthusiasm.

I wonder and I am now more determined to pen down very important reasons why I have not hated my job for so long, after thinking hard for the past fifteen hours. Or something like the whys and the how’s that made up the great feeling inside (feeling liberated actually) feeling proud with the fact.

I felt liberated! Is this the best gift for the perseverance that I have endured? Does that mean that I have truly enjoyed my journey for the past eighteen years? Was it true that the path I have chosen was the correct one? Was this the road less travelled celebrity authors have written on?

I think I have found the right job eighteen years ago and “you don’t have to work a day” as Brian puts it. I think so. When I first started into this job, I have recognized that the success is largely depended on how one would have control over the intended performance. It is still very much an individual affair and I am glad to say that the first few years were indeed challenging as I maneuver and learning the tricks of my new trade. It wasn’t easy but at the same time I began to learn about myself, my strength and most important my objectives. It was really a paradigm shift that I myself have to see into myself so to speak; learning to play a different role altogether while wading through unfamiliar territory.

Soon after, I began to enjoy the new role. I began to accept that the fact that I have a new role that is so much different from my peers at that time; in fact at that time no one else have guessed why I have embarked to the new path, let alone understand my rational. The challenge at that time was to convince myself that I will do well in my new career and it is all about my future, no one else. I did have some success in the third year and I am proud that I have proved to myself that I could do well if I set my priorities well. That had spurred my enthusiasm further, I felt.

As I advance further, coupled with some really good opportunities that I had taken well, I began to see newer challenges and responsibilities. I felt these opportunities were well executed and gain tremendous trusts from superiors and other stakeholders. With good words around by humble people around me I start to believe that I am made out for this career. I began to discover more of my strength from year to year and to be honest, I still do.
I can’t paint all the beautiful and painful things that I had went through all these eighteen years (maybe in book about myself later, no just kidding) in this blog; nevertheless I felt blessed that I had overcome each challenges as they come. My perseverance and my beliefs have pulled me through each time, my honesty and diligence I suspect, have played an important role. I can feel the toil until today but I am not complaining. The satisfaction from the challenges and the many pleasant encounters made it worth the effort. I felt that this career is rewarding, great satisfaction with no financial measure that one can attach.

I am glad over the years I have met people who are truly helpful and have appreciated the small things I did and continue doing. Their appreciations have given me tremendous support over the years and I am blessed that they are still coming in. I guess these motivate anyone in the same role as I am. It makes you wanting to do more and looking back the eighteen years, I am glad to say that it made the difference.

So, are they regrets or hating my job? God blessed, NO! I love every single minute of it because my role let me discover my strengths every day, I can see that expanding. I am glad. Thanks mate for asking this question yesterday. Today I felt liberated as I know the answer.

I have forgotten how to hate my job! And in case you are still figuring what I have enjoyed the last eighteen years, I teach.

Unconditional Smurf Love

“It doesn’t matter where you came from. It is what you want to be matters” ~ Papa Smurf

Where did you come from?
Long forgotten and it does not matter
Where did you come from?
I know where and I appreciated it,
…but it does not matter

Where did you come from?
Different from mine, noted and does not matter
Where did you come from?
Brown, colored and sounds foreign
…but it does not matter

Where did you come from?
Penny-less, mal-nutrient and does not matter
Where did you come from?
Different religion and beliefs
…but it does not matter

Where did you come from?
Slaved, tortured and it does not matter
Where did you come from?
Closed bars, I repented and noted
…but it does not matter

So what matters?
It is about you becoming
what you want to be

It matters when you realized
Respecting others is important
Helping others is virtue
Sharing with others is a gift
Guiding others is responsibility
and….Loving others is unconditional

And honestly I share.

Politics and You.


Believe it or not, this is my second (or third?) post for the year. I have not written for a while (six months!) simply because I was busy keeping up with the local national election, which saw the ruling Government receiving a bashing outside left from the newer coalition. The “opposition” had created a tsunami by clinching the favorite votes overall only to the dismay of the pro-opposition voters that the ruling party retain a simple majority due to some alleged unfair and unjust electoral boundaries; not to mention the alleged frauds that they are going to battle it out in the courts in the coming months. The ruling party, as alleged, seems to have unfair access to the election commission’s power albeit the claim on the fraudulent use of some cheap “indelible” indelible ink (which supposed to prevent fraudulent second round voting!).

The scenes at the courts would be interesting in the coming months.

The reason I am posting here again is that I wanted to write and probably re-emphasize the need for everyone (no age specificity here) to be truly aware of their political environment. Over the last six to seven months I had come across many arguments over political doings in the country. Without too much judgment being made, I tried seeing their rational but yet I must pen down some of my thoughts on the whys, hows, whats of politics. Mainly to share how important is our choice in the ballot boxes.

I guess the common notion of the people here is the need for a better country. It is a fact that the people want to see that they are able to sustain their lives in the country. I am not referring to inflation alone, but the other living factors ranging from freedom of speech to equal opportunities. The people felt that there is a need to be consulted. They hate to see programs by the ruling government to benefit only the privilege few. They felt short changed. Their grouses seem too trivial to the authorities. They felt that the events could be better dealt with, taking out the inappropriate decisions and dealings in between. The people know that they are now better empowered to steer the country to better accountability for one simple reason – making their lives better.

I know that (I wonder “my government” realizes this) the people want their government to satisfy the people’s aspiration, not the government’s aspiration. They have, for too long not being consulted. They have followed too long, with hope that their aspiration would come through. The recent election results don’t favor their hope. They wanted change because they have waited too long. They know the government can do much more and better, they rooted for the government to change their mentality in running the country. We all know that and please don’t ask me what else I want! I want something better than what we have today because it is necessary!

For my younger readers, the government we have elected has the executive power in running the country. They go to the parliament to push through laws (hence they are known as law makers) that gives them the executive powers. These powers will allow them to make policies that govern all aspect of our lives. I hope you don’t take too likely about the policy making and please let me make it clear that I am not a rebel, I just want you to understand that not all policies and laws they made are too favorable to you and me.

They did affect how you had lived and going live in the future. The policies, among others the education policy decides when you go to school, what you learn, where you graduate from, where you can work and of course, when you can retire and how you will receive your pensions! To add on, policies will also affect what we know, what we hear, what we see and how we see things. In reality, in the commerce scene, policies decide how businesses compete, how small business flourished into large conglomerates with unfair advantage and of course how businesses monopolies your economy. These all affect how you consume what you need in your daily life. Mouthful to mention here but I hope you can realize that these policies do affect how you live.

How are we going to achieve these?

I must claim that they are not easy. But I must also stress that it all start from you, your awareness. You must rise to the fact that you need to determine how you and the people around you live. No one of sound mind would want to live in misery. Please don’t accuse me of being not contended. I am, as long as I have misery in my life. I am matured enough to sense correct from wrong, good from bad, moral and immoral; and beneficial to society from those that are not. Only through realization of the people, things can change for the better. Eyes blinkered by the showers of cash and benefits by the government from time to time certainly don’t help in this cause. Think logically, will these ever help? Yes could be your answer but they have turned the national concern into “your” personal short term satisfaction. Will it help how the wider society lives? Think.

We want long term solution to issues. We want solutions that work for all and for the country, not those short term fixes that silence the issues or for the sake of gaining political mileages. I know this may sound provocative but aren’t solutions that we want?

A country that is well developed, strong bargaining power, strong currency, strong trading term, resilient to economic challenges; wouldn’t you think all these would improve our lives? It all boils down to determine how much we pay for our goods and services that necessitate our living hood! I am not over exaggerating the issue here but I want to challenge you to compare prices of goods on a dollar to dollar basis across the globe. Our policies have something to do with this issue here. (Please don’t compare my country with the one ones that you have not objectively chosen)

I have travelled abroad and I have seen good policies that benefited the people. It ranges from social benefits to medical and insurances; education, trade and sports policies. Coming from an East Asian country and too long blinkered for most part of my growing up years, now I tend to think that the western policies would have more edge in protecting the general society as opposed to the more “regimented” ones that protect the powerful and respected few – my opinion as a result of western exposure in my education and maturity in my thinking.

I am not comparing too much and you cannot accuse me of not being loyal to my own country. I am loyal to my country. I love my country. We can do better if we remove some unwanted variables from the good equation. I have seen some good ones in my country. I must tell you also that my country do have some good and sound policies, but perhaps been too long molded in the culture that I sometimes think they are outdated (and needed some fine tuning).

I wanted to see more done into our education policies (that have change beyond focus every few years) and hope we can know that we are less than competitive in many aspects. It is time to focus on the quality (not just self-measurements!) on our human capital in the country, more on the how rather than what (very much technology driven) and more on their contribution to the GDP in the future. Teach the children with the best available methodologies, which currently only available in private schools for those that can afford? Are we not missing out the best for the country, settling for the second best for the masses? I am not being unreasonable! There is a disparity between government, half funded government, religious school, vernacular schools and yes, private and international schools. Are we happy with the second best technologies in our public schools? Why should we?

We still, in year 2013 see depilated school buildings and ill-equipped schools. I am not complaining too much I hope but why is this still happening? The machinery in the education department is obviously not functioning well not to realize the short comings in these schools. Is there a separate agenda, sorry, just speculating? (Policies :P)

I made it a point not to open another debate over meritocracy and university entrance in my country.

I am concluding with the question of “Policies vs Excuses?”. The choice is ours but it start with your awareness, not through rebellious means.